emmm :(

last night was...intresting. sean came over, he is still hear lol we had a rly rly rly amaizing night but yet agen i can not sleep lol iv rly upset myself i feel soooo guilty as good as last night was lol i cant get the words out right now lol i know wat i feel in my head but dont know how to put it into words.... i keep thinkn abut this time last year n how every thing was so good....not that things are bad now they are just so diffrent and im not were i thought id be, i rly rly rly like sean alot but i feel like i am cheating on john and it is killing me :( i dont cry alot but now i cant stop lol im hiding in my living room dont want sean to c it, it will just make things so much more complicaited lol

fransesca is staying with her uncles tonight and i rly rly rly miss her lol the house is so quiet lol